I wasn’t good at all yesterday. For some reason, I actually got really hungry at work. I never eat at work, and I never get anything other than water from the vending machines onsite, but for some reason I decided that I was hungry enough to get a Snickers and some white cheddar popcorn. Had that been the extent of my misbehavior, I might have been all right, but I made the mistake (again) of stopping by the grocery store after work.

I picked up another loaded baked potato with brisket and some more queso and tortilla chips. And I didn’t stop there. At checkout, there was a coupon for two packages of Reese’s peanut butter cups, so I took advantage of it. I already had chocolate on the brain after the Snickers at work, so there wasn’t any deliberation at all, just pure impulse.

I weigh a pound more today. I’ll “eliminate” some of that weight after coffee because the corn flour in the tortilla chips contains a lot of indigestible fiber. Still, I shouldn’t have indulged in any of it. It was sort of a cascade of events that led to some poor food choices: it had been another frustrating day at work that didn’t end well, I was “primed” for chocolate because of having the Snickers for lunch, and I was particularly susceptible to impulse.

I have to be good today because my confidence in being able to fast (or even eat modest, healthy meals) is waning. So, I’m going to fast the entire day  (or at least try to). If I can have just one day in which I can exercise some restraint, perhaps I can build on that. We’ll see…