I behaved myself yesterday. I fasted until I got off work, and then I went home and had a giant vegetarian salad. I also had some raw almonds as a sort of appetizer and some yogurt and blueberries for dessert. Still, this morning, I weighed in a pound more than I did yesterday. Maybe that pound is just water and fiber, but it’s still irritating to eat healthy food (and not too much of it) and not lose any weight.

I’m going to try eating a very small meal tonight, or maybe just a snack (I guess if the meal is small enough, it is a snack). That I haven’t been able to get below 240 pounds has been really frustrating. But then I start thinking about consistency, and I haven’t been very consistent. The weekends, of course, have been the biggest challenge in terms of staying on track, and I need to get out of the habit of thinking that whatever dietary mistakes I make on the weekend can be remedied by not making any mistakes during the week.

I was really thirsty all day yesterday, which was a bit concerning since that’s one of the warning signs of diabetes. But, I had to talk a lot at work, and I went to the gym during lunch, so I may just have been dehydrated. I don’t feel thirsty yet this morning, but I’ll have to keep an eye on that since diabetes is something I obviously don’t need. None of my bloodwork suggests insulin resistance, so I think it was just a thirsty day. I drank more water than I typically do, so maybe that accounts for some of the unexpected weight today.

I started this project in March and expected to be down to my desired weight by the end of this month. That obviously isn’t going to happen, but I’m not sure that’s a bad thing. Had I been disciplined enough to stick to an intermittent fasting regimen that included only healthy food for four months, I’m not sure I would have learned much (other than my self-discipline was top-notch). The way things have gone, I’ve learned a lot about the psychology of eating and how stress in particular tends to drive me to eat unhealthy types (and quantities) of food. There are some patterns I’ve observed that obviously need changing, and I guess the biggest challenge once I get down to my target weight is how to more constructively deal with anxiety.

I guess that’s all I’ve got time to write for today. Hopefully I’ll have better news to report tomorrow.