I didn’t get much sleep last night, so this may be a short post. I went to Trader Joe’s yesterday to get some almonds and coconut and almond coffee creamer. The almonds are for my salads (which I have to get back into the habit of making), and the creamer I got because I’m tired of drinking iced black coffee and needed something to make matcha lattes with. Unfortunately, I also made a couple of impulse buys: a giant chocolate bar with almonds and some iced lemon scones. I don’t know why they’d been on my mind, but they had been, and when I saw them I grabbed them without much thought. I also got some mandarin oranges.

As usual when I get stuff that’s bad for me on the weekends, I’d planned to spread its consumption over Saturday and Sunday. But, by the end of the day, the scones and the chocolate were gone. I didn’t do myself any favors in the evening, either, when I stopped (yet again) at P. Terry’s. That, too, was unplanned: I was supposed to meet a friend for pizza (which wouldn’t have been any better for me than a cheeseburger, of course), but my (notoriously flakey) friend wasn’t at her apartment when I showed up. She communicated with me intermittently, apologizing for her absence, but I got tired of waiting for her and left. It put me in a bad mood (she pulls this sort of thing regularly), so I made the trip to P. Terry’s when I could have just had a salad or something remotely healthy.

This particular friend has been a chronic source of stress ever since I’ve known her (she’s the one I’ve gained weight with over the past two-plus years), and I think I’ve just reached the end of my rope. She’s a very sweet person, but she seems to forget I exist at times, and that’s confusing and hurtful. In addition to having the communication skills of a five year-old, she’s horribly unreliable and irresponsible. I continue to insist that she’s (usually) a good friend, but maybe I need to adjust my thinking. A person who can’t be bothered to let me know when she’s changed her plans about meeting up isn’t being a good friend.

Anyway, I gained three pounds according to my scale. Some of that will be eliminated, of course, but I gained weight regardless. As I mentioned yesterday, I’m going to try to be consistently on my best eating behavior over the next two weeks in an effort to get down to 230 pounds. We’ll see…